Day 1 - May 24th
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asphaltcowgrrlI joined an accountability group back at the beginning of the year to get both my workouts and my nutrition back on track. For the next 30 days, they’re doing a version of the 75 Hard program, although they’re calling it 30 *Kinda* Hard. Hahaha.
So, what I’m accountable for are two workouts a day – one outside, drink a gallon of water, keep my nutrition on track, and 10 minutes of personal development. Although, I whined and begged off having to actually go outside and exercise, seeing as it’s almost June and THIS IS THE FRIGGEN DESERT.
Anyway, my point here is that I’m going to take ten minutes and work on a journal prompt every day. I’m calling that personal development. And… if that journaling happens to take the form of Zayne doing a bit of navel-gazing… well…
What do I know to be true that I didn’t know a year ago?
When Troy died, I thought I’d never make it without him. He’d been such a huge part of my life starting when I was fifteen years old. How was I going to survive at forty-five without him?
For the first few months after we lost him, I was convinced that I wasn’t going to make it. That my in-laws were going to have to take the kids because there was no way I could go one more day alone. However, slowly, a transformation took place. One I don’t think I even realized was happening. Every day, I got a little more used to being on my own, growing more confident in my choices, my opinions, my ability to continue without the most important person in my life.
Now, here I am almost a year and a half later and I think things are going okay. I’m lonely, but that’s to be expected. I have my girls, but they’re about all I have because all my friends live inside this computer. *taps screen* Which is partially a hazard of working in an all-male company, I think. As long as I have people I can talk to, laugh with, connect with, even if it’s online or over the phone, I’ll be okay. I don’t need you in my face, I just need you in my life.
I’ll be interested to see what the next six months or a year bring me.
Oh, and if you care, my workouts were a 20 minute step aerobics/circuit training sort of thing plus a 10 minute stretch.
So, what I’m accountable for are two workouts a day – one outside, drink a gallon of water, keep my nutrition on track, and 10 minutes of personal development. Although, I whined and begged off having to actually go outside and exercise, seeing as it’s almost June and THIS IS THE FRIGGEN DESERT.
Anyway, my point here is that I’m going to take ten minutes and work on a journal prompt every day. I’m calling that personal development. And… if that journaling happens to take the form of Zayne doing a bit of navel-gazing… well…
What do I know to be true that I didn’t know a year ago?
When Troy died, I thought I’d never make it without him. He’d been such a huge part of my life starting when I was fifteen years old. How was I going to survive at forty-five without him?
For the first few months after we lost him, I was convinced that I wasn’t going to make it. That my in-laws were going to have to take the kids because there was no way I could go one more day alone. However, slowly, a transformation took place. One I don’t think I even realized was happening. Every day, I got a little more used to being on my own, growing more confident in my choices, my opinions, my ability to continue without the most important person in my life.
Now, here I am almost a year and a half later and I think things are going okay. I’m lonely, but that’s to be expected. I have my girls, but they’re about all I have because all my friends live inside this computer. *taps screen* Which is partially a hazard of working in an all-male company, I think. As long as I have people I can talk to, laugh with, connect with, even if it’s online or over the phone, I’ll be okay. I don’t need you in my face, I just need you in my life.
I’ll be interested to see what the next six months or a year bring me.
Oh, and if you care, my workouts were a 20 minute step aerobics/circuit training sort of thing plus a 10 minute stretch.
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Date: 2021-05-25 02:12 am (UTC)I hope you find the accountability program useful — certainly can't hurt, and a month, I believe I've heard, is a decent amount of time to set a new habit in.
My exercise today was a two mile walk. Nothing near what I used to be able to do, but I also had my latest infusion today. The meds I'm getting every few weeks (through early September) have the unfortunate side effect of making me ache like hell for a few days- and also make me tired and cranky/deflated. So I forced myself to walk it off. It helped. I'm still sore and my head aches (gotta pop some Tylenol) but I do feel better for having moved.
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Date: 2021-05-25 01:14 pm (UTC)Thanks. If nothing else, I'm paying more attention to what I'm eating, which I hate doing. I generally have a decent diet — lots of fruits and veg, not a lot of greasy takeout (one of the benefits of having a vegan child, the fast food she can eat is generally healthier). And that's what I'm thinking — if I can stick with this for 30 days, I might continue with it.
Considering what you've been going through, a 2 mile walk is huge. If you can have it, try eating some fresh pineapple after your infusions. It's good for post workout soreness, so maybe it might help with your post-infusion aches? Even if it's not, you got to eat some pineapple. LOL! Seriously though, getting out into the sunshine and moving is underrated. SO good to feel that sun on your skin.
*hugs*
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Date: 2021-05-25 07:08 pm (UTC)no subject
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